Thursday, August 21, 2014
Turning Point - Again

How many turning points does an average man experience on his lifetime? Once, twice, thrice? I feel like it is an ever growing never ending turning point, when you decide what to eat, what to wear, what to drink, where to go, what movie to watch, where to hide, whom to talk, how to exercise, how to sell, what to improve, where to travel, whom to love, how to live...never ever ending. What's your turning point?

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Wednesday, September 08, 2010
what's next?

After more than 30 days of hunting a job, still I can't find one. Reasons? Well, I don't know! But probably one of these: Ramadan: most of the bosses are out of town, staying away from fasting I guess. So the decision as to hire or not is pending almost all the time. Recession: Dubai's stimuli is slow and worst. Dubai is just feeling the so called economic downturn while the rest of the world is slowly picking up the pace. tsk tsk. poor me! Reintegration: Di ko maintindihan, kelangan ko ba talaga nito? Well siguro kasi matagal ding stocked sa iisang lugar. I should be attending seminars and trainings para naman mag level up. The problem is where to start? and what to attend? Anyway, with all these problems, I am still positive that I can find a job before everything else fall. Maybe it's because I believe that when we limit ourselves with low expectations, the growth of the tree of happiness ceases. The power of growth, of improvement, the power to overcome all stagnation and break through every obstacle and transform a barren wasteland into a verdant field--that unstoppable power of hope resides right within your own heart. It wells up from the rich earth of your innermost being when you face the future without doubt or fear: "I can do more. I can grow. I can become a bigger and better human being." Life is a never-ending struggle to grow. That is why I am still holding on.

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Thursday, June 11, 2009
Duling

  Four days ago, I woke up the usual time, expecting a lot of "shi shi" as what my son, AJ is calling it. Dumiretso ako sa cr, pupungas pungas, punas ng mga laway sa gilid ng labi na natuyo dahil sa magdamagang paghilik, (yuckieee) hehehehe.. I then sat on the throne and do my usual routine. Brush ng teeth, konting pahinga then naligo na. Ginising ko na mag ina ko and they were both trying hard to wake up from the bed. Ayaw pa magising. Kya i continue to dress up dahil me pasok pa. Its monday morning I guess. Then suddenly napansin ko, I wasnt having the same focus when staring to something, and when Im inclined towards the left, it doubles, really double and it was like the same image was 2 feet away from each other. I rubbed my eyes repeatedly, tightly holding my breath, and I slowly open my right eye.. phewww.. its normal... i closed the right eye and i began to open my left.. what a relief... its normal.. no double vision.. hayyy salamat sa...WHATTTTHEE F..." i almost screamed my lungs out.. there it was.. two beds, two wives, two sons..."shit shit..." Di ko tlga alam gagawin ko.. i repeatedly rub my eyes and repeatedly calling my wife... "hon, ano nangyayari? hon ano nangyayari?" sabi ng asawa ko.. I calm myself and told her.. I was having double vision. And I opened both eyes.. there it is.. still.. but rather than panic.. I kept my cool.. "It will be soon over, it will be over"

After an hour of preparation, having breakfast together, I forgot the whole thing and I am happy that it will not be affecting my daily routines. I then went out and clean my Akira. Akira was fine, no dents, no vandals on her body covered mostly by dust and sands. Oh she was fine and so beautiful. A black beauty. Then come the mother and son. Both were carrying bags, so then I drive. Dropping my son to his school and my wife to work. Alone in Shk Zayed again... Its the road where me and Akira spends a lot of time together. Boasting my collection of mp3s,, (hehehehehe) we were listening to same music for the last few weeks, "Another summer day, is come and gone away, in Paris and Rome But i wanna go home....hmmmmm"

when I reached DAFZA, i had a slight headache, maybe because of preposterously thinking of what may be lying in my table again.. im sure its gonna be a long long day.. pagtuntong ko pa lang sa pinto.. there it go again.. naduduling n nman ako.. "shit" i forced myself to my chair and there I began to think. The deepest thinking 'maybe' that i had made for a very long time.. Rubbing both the top of my eyebrows and sides of my head.. i didnt stop to pray... "lord ano po tong binigay mo sa kin?" "bkit po?' and right there and then... i stopped. sabi ko, ngayon lng n nman ako nakapagdasal dahil sa kelangan ko n nman sya. tinawag ko na nman sya pra lang sisihin sa nangyari sa akin. hayyy buhay.. samantalang pag masarap ang buhay at lahat ni hindi man lang matawag ang pangalan nya. whew..pero i really make sure na mapapsalamatan ko sya sa mga biyayang binibigay nya. that im really sure. pati nga anak ko alam magpa thank you. i got up slowly then i walked towards my boss' table. But unfortunately, he asked me to do all the pending jobs.. well dahil sa gusto ko din nman yon kya i forced myself. khit naduduling na ako.. sige lang ng sige.. kya pa nman eh. hours past... and ding.. 5.30 na.. di ko pa time umuwi. hehehehe 6.30 kasi ako. pero tlgang di ko na kya.. sabi ko uuwi na din ako. bka di ko na makaya pang mag drive.. buti n lng magaling si Akira.. di nya ako pinabayaan.

I picked up my wife safely and we had a nice dinner together. khit na naduduling na ako. then sabi ko i will not be working for maybe couple of days dahil sa nararamdaman ko.

The next morning.. ayon I had visited two different opthalmologist, and they both share the same conclusion... a "6th cranial nerve palsy" Hayy nabuhayan ako ng loob kahit pano dahil sabi nila temporary lang daw yon.. After 6 weeks average e magse self heal lang daw...un ay kung un nga yon. What if iba? What if tumor? I begin to push my panic button again... hayyyyyyyy... ano ba to? wla bang katapusan? I then went home "laylay ang balikat" at wlang idea kung ano ang nangyayari sa sarili.. Buti n lng anjan ang anak ko na handang magpatawa at handang maglambing sa oras ng kalungkutan ko.. at mabuti n lng din at anjan ang asawa ko na nagpapalakas ng loob ko, pati na din ang kapatid ko na lagi ding nasa tabi ko lalo sa mga ganitong pagkakataon. I never lost my faith ika nga.

Third day...(ng pagkaduling) I visited a neurologist this time,and I underwent MRI. Praying, hoping, and really putting it on a punctuation na im not sick, im well and im gonna be ok in 6 weeks... And then the news...Im well, well enough to jump out and say yahooooo! Thanks to him di nya ako binibigyan ng mga bagay na di ko kaya. Very much lucky, kya nga im pushing myself to the limits. Alam naman ng lahat yon. Hindi lang po tlga maiiwasan na hindi magkasakit ang isang tao. yon ngang mga makina nasisira, at naaayos din.. tayo pa kyang mga tao? Mahina sa virus, mahina sa bacteria at higit sa lahat kelangan ng mga komplikadong bagay pra lang maintindihan ang pinakasimpleng bagay sa mundo.. un ay ang pagmamahal sa sarili at ang pag respeto dito. Sabi nga nila "mahalin mo muna ang sarili mo bago ka magmahal ng iba" dahil kung pano mo irespeto ang sarili mo ay yon din ang magiging pag respeto mo sa kapwa mo.

I have been suffering from double vision since monday, June 8, 2009, coincidentally bday ng kapatid kong namayapa nong 2005. Sorry kuya di agad kita nabati pag gising ko sa umaga... pero alam ko nman na hindi mo yon binigay sakin dahil di k nman nagbibigay ng mga ganyan.. t shirt pwede pa.. pero ung pagkaduling... never.. hehehehehehehe. Nwei.. happy happy birthday sa yo, sana eh masaya ka jan.  And alam ko nman na masaya ka din pra sa min na naiwan dito. Sige at medyo nangungulit na si AJ. maglalaro daw kami ng lego.


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